Is The Whole World Sleeping In?

Sundays have a particularly solitary quality. It might be because I’m an early riser, and when I’m padding around the neighbourhood with whichever dog happens to be in my life this week, thinking about coffee, and trying to guess how the weather will unfold, there is never anyone else around.Not in my High Park haven. Not here in glorious Yorkville. Especially not in Paris, and certainly not at King and River street. Even the homeless were sleeping in.I imagine people in their beds. Lovers enjoying the first few rays of sun, wound up and naked between crisp, white sheets. People… View Post

Reading You Loud and Clear

I don’t need to have a functioning brain to understand what’s going on. Sometimes, things are clear enough that a person who is only functioning with the heart can sort it all out.People, it’s important to take your cues off those around you, and respond accordingly, remembering always that we teach people how to treat us. If I re-assess my summer goals, they look something like this: 1. Have fun2. Refuel the love tank3. Rediscover “me” time4. Build a beautiful home I need to remember rule number one. If it feels bad, slap some aloe vera on it. If that… View Post

Notice of Eviction

Ok brain. Thank you for kicking in at 12:00 am. That was pretty funny, to take an entire day off, and then keep me up all night, and have me in knots all day today.I pulled down a post because you can’t decide whether or not it was too personal. I think the point of the blog is to not edit like that, brain.I really feel like you’re screwing things up for me right now. Heart and gut are supposed to be doing all the work these days, and you keep sticking your brainy nose in, and confusing everything. And… View Post

Men at Work Overhead

A saucy young window washer repelled off the side of my building today and dropped down in front of me like Spiderman.“Hmmmm….” I thought. “This is an interesting way to start the day – men raining down from the sky with a wink and a nod.”That was when I decided to shut off my brain for the entire day. It’s been working incredibly well. Even when I found out my contractor hasn’t been in the apartment all week, and not a single thing has been done. I began to fret momentarily, but then reminded myself that my brain was off,… View Post

Fortress of Solitude

I think Superman was on to something. Today, I feel that maybe it’s a bad idea for me to be dating anyone. After recently moving away from so much hurt, it’s still so close to the surface, and I can feel my old sensitivities being irritated all the time. For four years, I was in hot pursuit. I was adoring, attentive, I lavished love, and support, and so much care, and in turn spent much of my time waiting, and yearning, and wanting. I felt invisible, unwanted, unattractive, and largely unhappy. Every aspect of our relationship was on his terms… View Post