2018 Wish List

Happy New Year!

Photos by Kyle Andrew

I hope the festive season was good to you and those you hold in your heart. This year, we slowed things down for the holidays. We knew we wanted to try something different after a particularly maudlin 2017 Christmas, but this decision was reinforced by a series of daily meltdowns I had leading up to the holidays. (I can’t talk about that yet, but I will soon). Christmas Day was spent at home, all day, in our PJs. My parents, brother, auntie and dear cousin joined us for a small turkey feast and we played cards, ate too much, and shared some laughs. This felt so completely right, that it’s gotta become a new tradition.

Tweens hugging

Another new tradition is crafting a list of things I’d like for the brand new year. I won’t call them resolutions, because I feel the pressure just typing those letters. I wanted to write something for you as we sail into the New Year, but everything I started to craft sounded like trite horse shit. I’m sitting on a mountain of change, and I can’t talk about it yet. I’m avoiding sharing my feelings with you because they’ve been messy, and unpleasant, and embarrassing. Instead, I give to you my 2018 wish list.


  • More fun ways to exercise
  • A return to a keto lifestyle
  • Increased energy
  • Gratitude for my healthy body
  • Creativity in the bedroom
  • Time in nature
  • Time in the kitchen
  • Stress management techniques that work
  • A sense of security


  • More face-to-face time with my friends
  • More time connecting with my kids
  • Down time
  • A gratitude practice
  • Bubble baths
  • Reading for pleasure
  • Frivolous ways to spend time
  • Opportunities for volunteering
  • Dinners with family
  • A sense of security
  • Truth bombs on the daily
  • Saying no to things that make me anxious and resentful


  • Crafting time
  • Journal time on the regular
  • Crafts with the kids
  • A sense of security


  • Organization
  • Discipline
  • Growth
  • Daily writing practice
  • Regular efforts at promotion
  • A published novel and/or literary agent
  • A sense of security

In addition to this list, I intend to spend the next few days mind-mapping all of the ideas rolling around in my brain when it comes to work. I don’t actually know what mind-mapping is, but when I imagine myself doing this, I’ve got colorful markers in hand and I’m puking out random ideas onto an empty page. I have some power over my work life, and I’d like to exert control where I can.

Another thing I just did, not because I’m feeling particularly nostalgic, but because my SEO optimizer prompted me to add some internal links, was go back through this blog and ready every post I’ve ever written around January 1st. This hurt my heart, and in particular, I could see a real turning point in 2014. As I type, I find myself yearning for the articulation and joy of 2016 (my brother’s awesome photos really say it all, though). These posts are inconsistent, but I’ve linked you here in case anyone would like to read my evolution:







Kid drinking milk christmas pajamas

It’s impossible to know what’s going to happen in 2018. It seems that each year, there’s a sea change, and trying to prepare for such a thing seems like a guaranteed way to get washed out. I’ve become an expert in self-reliance, and that’s something. In fact, I think that’s everything, now. I can count on myself. I can take care of myself. I believe I’m a good mother, though certainly not perfect. I have sometimes believed that I’m a good partner, but I don’t know about that anymore.

I’d like to find stability and trust in 2018, even if that means trusting my own two feet to carry me the rest of the way. If I’m deeply honest, (and vulnerable in the ways you’ve always seemed to love), I’d like to know that lasting romantic love does in fact exist, and that it’s safe to trust another person on a profound level.

What’s on your 2018 Wish List?

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  1. Jen
    January 9, 2018 / 1:48 pm

    Oh Cat, I feel you so much on this. As to your question, I often wonder this myself…I think what it boils down to is that romantic love is, sadly, conditional. As much as we wish it to be unconditional, I believe that true, everlasting and unconditional love only exists between a mother and child (perhaps some fathers too, but not all).

    • Cat Skinner
      January 10, 2018 / 9:08 am

      I can’t say that I wish for romantic love to be unconditional. I think respecting each other’s boundaries are part of what makes a relationship work, and so therefore there should be some conditions around romantic love. The question I have is whether or not I’ll be able to find a place where I can trust that my boundaries are being respected and my individual needs are being met. Not all of them, all the time, but the core ones that speak to my sense of safety and security, absolutely.

      • Jen
        January 10, 2018 / 11:20 am

        I agree that everyone deserves that in a romantic relationship, otherwise, what is the point? I think providing a sense of safety, security and respect IS the core of love. If those needs are not being met, it is not ‘love’ IMO, but something else.
        It is also important to keep in mind that each individual has different needs/values, and it is crucial that a romantic partner is fully aware of your needs, as they may vary wildly from their own. From personal experience, I can say that things that I perceive as inconsequential, are not necessarily unimportant to my partner, and vice versa. I always need to remain cognizant of that…it sounds easier than it is!

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