This is the first New Year’s Day I haven’t had a hangover in, well, I just don’t know. It’s kind of a nice feeling. Last night was a quiet dinner in a Yorkville Chinese restaurant (delicious) and a movie – Black Swan (I was totally blown away. Natalie Portman was unbelievable and the story was spectacularly dark.) We toasted the New Year quietly, at home, missing a third of ourselves and feeling more than a little wistful. My life is getting back on track, and I am grateful. Today I slept soundly until 11 am, which is unlike me. We…
Things I have learned in 2010: The love in my life makes me glow when it is harmonious (everyone said so, and I’ve never heard this so consistently. The work that I have accomplished this year has been some of my best, and it was all for my family and I. You can love people who aren’t blood like your family. Sometimes even more so. Faith is inside me, not in the clouds. Relationships are hard, my relationship to myself is harder. Family is everything. Having a family of my own is one of the greatest feelings I’ve ever known.…
In the face of so much uncertainty, I know this is true; I never want the holidays to feel like this again. This has always been an important time of the year to me, and I want to honor it without so much confusion and sadness for all of the rest of my days. Perhaps that’s naive, but this is how I feel today. Initially, I thought I would forgo the extended family Christmas Day feast, a tradition I’ve observed since birth, every single year of my life. I’ve been so emotional lately, and putting on a brave face seemed…
I want to live, I want to give I’ve been a miner for a heart of gold. It’s these expressions I never give That keep me searching for a heart of gold And I’m getting old. Keeps me searching for a heart of gold And I’m getting old. I’ve been to Hollywood I’ve been to Redwood I crossed the ocean for a heart of gold I’ve been in my mind, it’s such a fine line That keeps me searching for a heart of gold And I’m getting old. Keeps me searching for a heart of gold And I’m getting old.…
I believe it was Heavy D who said “Now that we’ve found love, what are we going to do with it?” Nothing feels right and every possible avenue and scenario is fraught with complication, and as I continue to watch the days unfold all I can think in my heart is that we are here, together. We are meant to be here together. But how do we do it? Like blind pilgrims we went in search of love in the most unlikely places, with only faith in the intensity of our emotion and the strength of our connection to guide…
